I have no mouth

Thu, 27 Nov 2003 08:27:57 GMT

Hey.

I activated this thing for a while;
but will delete this later again.

I have another lj known as "mothgirl":
I'll start writing to it soon.
You can add it to your friend list
and if I know you somehow,
I'm quite sure to add you back ;)
Even if I don't, I decided to make all art posts public there.
(when I make them, that is.) so if you just read this because
of them, no worries.

I no longer wish to have this account because it carries too much
sad and painful memories with it...it has become a burden to me. And I need a place to feel more comfortable in, because things are very rough to me now. No more about that, but yes, see you elsewhere.

and a most sincere fuck you to certain person - if you had any idea how much you have hurt me, would you care?

Wed, 26 Nov 2003 08:28:42 GMT

Goodbye (for a while.)

Sun, 23 Nov 2003 19:32:24 GMT

From jame0

* Date you joined? 2001-05-15 01:35:10 (I made this thing when it was still free for all ^^)
* Number of journal entries? 1 129
* Number of people on your friends list? 68
* Person that introduced you to LJ? Nobody, I found it myself.
* Still friends with this person? Yes, I am friends with myself.
* How many people have you introduced to Live Journal? I am not totally sure, but I recall giving three codes to my friends. Two of them didn't have a journal before, so I guess I've introduced now.
* List everyone on your friends list you have met in person: Projectwinter and hmmm, that's it for now. Hopefully more in the future ;)
* Anyone on LJ you can't stand? Dreamchord, that stupid little bitch.
* Name one person on your friends list you would most like to meet? I can't choose just one! :(
* Last person you added? *tries to remember* ...not sure. Probably re-added Jer.
* Ever banned someone from commenting in your journal? Never.
* Biggest pet peeve about lj: Quizzes.
* Do you feel close to most of the people on your friends list? Yep, otherwise I couldn't list them as friends.

Date created: 2001-05-15 01:35:10
Date updated: 2003-11-21 03:12:30, 2 days ago
Journal entries: 1,129
Comments: Posted: 2,106 - Received: 3,031

Fri, 21 Nov 2003 11:12:29 GMT

Dentist. Half of the mouth swollen again, two teeth less, spitting blood. Blaaargh. Until February I'm going to look like prostitute from 1800s London, the very same one that Jack the Ripper killed, at least what it comes to teeth. Well, not really, but there are two teeth missing. Better not laugh very much :( Luckily in February they'll start a big operation with my teeth, crowns, bridges, other stuff and hopefully the result will be quite normal teeth again. Hopefully it is worth of all this pain...

Thu, 20 Nov 2003 10:17:22 GMT

I live in apartment with a man I do not know. He has no face or actually, I know he does, I just cannot see it. There is a woman in our kitchen fixing our microwave oven, she is my online friend and I have no idea why she is there and how she could fix ovens. It feels natural though. My man comes home from work, he is wearing just black boxers and bathrobe. I wonder why the fuck he went to work dressed like that. I try to tell him to not go to kitchen, because there is a woman there and he is not very well dressed. I cannot speak though. He embraces me deep in his lap and tells me to go to feed the cats.

Cats?

We have two cats, one black and one white. But there is also a third cat in the room, an orange, sickly thin, sharp fangs. It is our neighbour's cat, and it looks at me with devil's eyes. Suddenly I know that the cat came here to kill my cats and me, and I must protect us. Its head disapperas and appears few metres away from it like Chesire Cat's in Alice in Wonderland. I grab a pillow, and when the evil cat is whole again, I attack it and crush it with my pillow. It disappears back in the dreams like it never existed. I sat on the sofa beside my man, and our cats climb in our laps so that we can pet them. Suddenly I feel most terrible fear overwhelming me - what if my cats attack me and I must kill them too?

Mon, 17 Nov 2003 11:36:12 GMT

Silly links for the day:

Go get him girls! Imagine how he'll explain this in jail - "I, umm, got beaten by a bunch of catholic girls..."

Do you have no sex life? Too bad this is closed, you could have won the sweater of pure sex for just 250 dollars. It probably oozes something that just will get us girls wet.

I cry many moons.

What the hell? No really...what the HELL?

Thu, 13 Nov 2003 13:52:50 GMT

I have one of the moments where I just want to grab a chaisaw and give the population of my city a good old harvesting. Must be because

a) People are fucking lying bastards.
b) People never keep their word.
c) People are annoying and stupid.

I think the world would be much better place if everyone just did what I said. Well, better for me, at least.

Fuckit, is it four already? *groan*

I think I'll get the hell out of here and go to place where nobody will be able to follow, eat some chocolate all alone and think of ways of brutally murdering people. I so dislike them at the moment. Kill kill, kill kill.

Wed, 12 Nov 2003 11:56:54 GMT

Harry Potter is bit last week for me, but this was still fucking funny.

p.s. IT LIVES AGAIN!

Tue, 11 Nov 2003 10:25:05 GMT

I get tons of random messages in Yahoo, and I always try to answer something witty to them before blocking them, just for fun. Because I'm bored now, I will copypaste some of the logs for shits and giggles. I'm "dreamchord" in these, of course.

akhan_003: hi
akhan_003: me there
akhan_003:
dreamchord: No, you are not here. *block*

bitikci: hi nice girl
dreamchord: How do you know I'm nice? *sharpens fangs*
bitikci: l saw your photo
dreamchord: Just one? Oh bleh...byebye. *block*

boylovesgirl_2000: hi
boylovesgirl_2000: f, 29 here. i have a cam....can we see each other
boylovesgirl_2000: i am seperated and a lesbi, i love females
dreamchord: Awesome. I like to suck cock though, so bye bye. *block*

erum_fiza786: hai how r u
erum_fiza786:
dreamchord: I never thought someone could misspell "hi". HAI AND BYEKTHX I KRI MANY MOONS. *block*

fluidiseur20002000f: salut de france : dany
dreamchord: Dany is yoghurt, isn't it? Reminds me that I need to go downstairs to get some. bye bye! *block*

iraqih8er69: i like to meet new people . what about u?
dreamchord: I like to eat new people. *block*

jmr_hcl: hi sweeeeety...u there
dreamchord: Byebye sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeety. *block*

kinkybifemv: hi.
kinkybifemv: sanny here
kinkybifemv: 32bif
dreamchord: I'm not kinky nor bi, so bye bye. *block*

lambada07: hey
dreamchord: hello
lambada07: how r u
lambada07: this is ted from chicag
lambada07: chicago
lambada07: u there
dreamchord: Hi and by, Ted! *block*

There would be many more, but I got bored already...hehe.

Mon, 10 Nov 2003 20:21:08 GMT

A small human only pretended to die
It wanted to be completely alone
The small heart stood still for hours
So they decided it was dead
It was buried in wet sand
With a music box in its hand

The first snow covered the grave
It woke the child very softly
In a cold winter night
The small heart was awakened
As the frost flew into the child
It wound up the music box
A melody in the wind
And the child sang from the ground

Hop hop rider!
And no angel shall climb down
My heart does not beat anymore
Only the rain cries on the grave
Hop hop rider!
A melody in the wind
My heart does not beat anymore

(Rammstein: Spieluhr)

Mon, 10 Nov 2003 12:14:16 GMT

Thanks for the comments on my previous post, and because I am lazy, I'll answer collectively - I found an alternative hosting plan for my domain by my host. It is just 36 euros a year, domain name included, and should have perfectly enough space and bandwith for my art portfolio. None of the side projects I've had will return because I want to focus what I have now. I am 99% sure that I will register stolen wings with that lighter plan this December. Thank you Emaleth for hosting me, you were the BEST hostess one could ask for, but own space is own space (no more feeling guilty using Emaleth's space, hehe!). I was wondering if I could keep my fragilemuse e-mail though? All the e-mails I've had at stolen-wings keep ending up in spam lists and I'm afraid my web host has something to do with that :(

Right now I'm trying if I could move the layout from my current site to stolen wings with fixing. When this is ready, I will contact list, webring and such owners. Well actually it is just one person, Laura

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Sun, 09 Nov 2003 17:34:52 GMT

I got a strange ache to register stolen-wings.org for the next year too and return all my art there - I gave it up because I thought I simply would have no money or time because of my teeth problems. But now as I've been told I'll get the expensive bridges and crowns for free, I think I just might...heh. I love it with fragilemuse.org, but with own domain I could make those damn tutorials and add some Photoshop brushes...hmmm...I have until 17th of December to decide. Should I? :)

Thu, 06 Nov 2003 20:08:00 GMT

Guess what is back? It is, of course, STUPID LOTR FANFIC TITLES with wannabe witty comments by yours truly. Hold on to your hats as I'll browse r-rated section of Fanfiction.net and dig up some gems that would make J.R.R.Tolkine roll in his coffin.

"Haldir and his brothers find a child in the woods."

I wouldn't be suprised if they kept a super-incest-orgy. Remember, we are in R-rated fanfic section, and here incests, rapes and other merry things just keep happening every second!

"Rebelling against his parent's wishes, Pippin accompanies Merry to visit thier cousin Frodo Baggins, in Hobbiton. While there, Merry confides in Frodo his true feelings for his younger cousin, and struggles with how to deal with him."

Must...get...image...of....them...doing...anal...sex...out...of...my...head...

"[AU]Aragorn has left Legolas for no apparent reason,leaving the young King in shams.What happens when Aragorn returns unintentionally?Will Legolas forgive him?Well? NO."

Yeah, how dared that bastard go and marry Arwen, that bitch? *shakes fist* LEGGY YOU BETTA NOT FORGIVE HIM!

"Crossover. What happens when the 9 members of the fellowship are in a cabin together, but each couple thinks their alone? Slash!"

Hahahaha. Not sure about what will happen in the actual fic, but I got a sudden urge to jam a spoon in my eye.

Faramir discovers that he and Boromir shared a secret with Aragorn.

THAT THEY BOTH WANTED THE RING? Ooops sorry, this was a r-rated fanfic. The secret probably is that Aragorn did them both in the poophole. Whee.

AL slash.Aragorn told Legolas he love him after Legoals was ill on the journey,when Arwen found out their relation after they go back Rivendell,she plan to punish Legolas badly for takeing Away her love from her.Warning: torture,Arwen was evil.

Pls forgive me but u tipe relly bat.

**SLASH** Gandalf goes to the Shire, and has an unexpected encounter with sausages, Samwise and Merry. Pure Smut! **COMPLETED**

Oh dear lord, thanks for the nightmere.

*snort*

Thu, 06 Nov 2003 19:35:08 GMT

This interests nobody and no one, but as I am so totally hooked on Golden Sun 2, I'll rejoice also here for doing through the most irritating cavern thingy ever, and without the walkthrough even. Well, my brother helped, although he kept nagging ang nagging that I use djinns all the time. But like I told him, using djinns allows you to summon some really tough guys and cast some special spells and unlike when you would normally use psyenergy and lose PPs, it won't happen with djinns. Besides, those adorable little creatures recover really fast.

Okay, nobody understands what I am talking about, so I'll shut up and go play some more, hehe. Why those damn Japanese people have to make so great roleplaying games? I swear, I rarely played any roleplaying games on our computer, such as Baldur's Gate, but this Golden Sun has lured me to spend ours with our GBA. Must be because the anime characters are so omg kawaii cuteeeeeeeee ^_^ ^_^;;

Wed, 05 Nov 2003 20:06:45 GMT

the things you wish you could say at work ;)

1. Ahhh... I see the fuck-up fairy has visited us again.
2. I don’t know what your problem is, but I’ll bet it’s hard to pronounce.
3. How about never? Is never good for you?
4. I see you’ve set aside this special time to humiliate yourself in public.
5. I’m really easy to get along with once you people learn to worship me.
6. I’ll try being nicer if you’ll try being smarter.
7. I’m out of my mind, but feel free to leave a message.
8. I don’t work here. I’m a consultant.
9. It sounds like English, but I can’t understand a word you’re saying.
10. I can see your point, but I still think you’re full of shit.
11. I like you. You remind me of when I was young and stupid.
12. You are validating my inherent mistrust of strangers.
13. I have plenty of talent and vision. I just don’t give a damn.
14. I’m already visualizing the duct tape over your mouth.
15. Thank you. We’re all refreshed and challenged by your unique point of view.
16. The fact that no one understands you doesn’t mean you’re an artist.
17. Any connection between your reality and mine is purely coincidental.
18. What am I? Flypaper for freaks!?
19. I’m not being rude. You’re just insignificant.
20. It’s a thankless job, but I’ve got a lot of Karma to burn off.
21. Yes, I am an agent of Satan, but my duties are largely ceremonial.
22. No, my powers can only be used for good.
23. You sound reasonable... Time to up the medication.
24. Who me? I just wander from room to room.
25. And your cry-baby whiny-butt opinion would be...?
26. Do I look like a people person?
27, This isn’t an office. It’s Hell with fluorescent lighting.
28. I started out with nothing and still have most of it left.
29. You! Off my planet!
30. Does your train of thought have a caboose?
31. Errors have been made. Others will be blamed.
32. Allow me to introduce my selves.
33. Whatever kind of look you were going for, you missed.
34. I’m trying to imagine you with a personality.
35. Can I trade this job for what’s behind door 1?
36. Too many freaks, not enough circuses.
37. Chaos, panic and disorder. My work here is done.
38. How do I set a laser printer to stun?
39. I thought I wanted a career, turns out I just wanted the paychecks.
40. If I throw a stick, will you leave?
41. Sarcasm is just one more service we offer.
42. Sarcasm is the lowest form of wit. If wit was shit, you’d be constipated.

hehe.

Wed, 05 Nov 2003 12:55:37 GMT

I wonder why people think that just because I am underweight, it is a perfect reason to make stupid comments about my weight. "Oh my, you're so thin! Eeeek! You look like starving! Don't you EAT?" Imagine if I went around telling people: "Oh my, aren't you a fat one? Eeeek! You look like you eat ten meals a day! Don't you STOP EATING?"

Why can't you just mind your own damn business? And yes, I eat. I just have a fast metabolism, no need to worry. Besides, it is not polite to call people "anorectic" when they are not. Anorexia is a damn mental sickness, not something to describe a thinner person.

And actually, I am sorry and this sounds selfish, but I am happy to be thin and small. Yes I do, I'm proud of being thin.

And now let's all go eating. I have a plate full of French fries ;)

Tue, 04 Nov 2003 07:03:09 GMT

Livejournal is all wonky today, hmph hmph.

self analysis boredom

Sat, 01 Nov 2003 20:14:22 GMT

So it is, I think, a time to sip some perry cider and share with people who you have never met (except one) some of the personal stuff you would never speak aloud in real life. It is funny how it is so easy here and how freely I can just type. Must be because I dislike speaking. I don't like my voice, and one of the most common elements in my dreams is that I'm mute, I try to speak something but I simply have no voice.

Dreams, yes. Lately I've had such vivid, strange dreams, and I half wake up after then, linger in my bed for half an hour in a strange condition of between worlds...I am aware of the world outside, I hear my parents and brother, my alarm clock ticking, but my thoughts run away in lands of unknown. And when I finally am back in reality again, both body and mind, I always feel comfortable and yet sad, because sometimes my dreams are very beautiful and portray things I wish would be true. It is a strange feeling indeed.

*yawn* I wish I could write more beautifully, but the fact that it is nighttime and that I simply cannot write beautifully in English (I've tried and always failed) combined will put an end to this nonsense.

Besides, they say silence is gold
and to those who ache inside
there is no song but silence

And there I gave you some stupid wannabe-poetrical cliches. Enjoy, I'll go downstairs to watch Fraser and gather strenght for tomorrow which will be the most boring Sunday ever.

Goodnight.

Fri, 31 Oct 2003 18:30:21 GMT

The Potion Maker
elinanium is a translucent, fine white powder drawn from the root of a morning glory.
Mix with elina! Username:
Yet another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern

yep, that's all for now.

Thu, 30 Oct 2003 11:13:54 GMT

Browsing through SpyAmp servers, I can't help but wonder how much pure shit people listen to these days. As I couldn't care less about MTV "shake that booty babe yo yo"-ganstarap, pop princesses or princes, teenageansgtwannabepunk or for christ's sake, Ace of Base (who the hell STILL listens to them?), it is always hard to find at least something to listen that won't make me want to stick a fork in my ear.

Ahhh...there is this one cool guy who listens to Delerium and classical music and just, ummm, strange but oh-so-cool stuff. He's my saviour. I really must ICQ him and tell him that the quality of his musical taste stands out, teehee.

Okay, I found some Juno Reactor, so I have something now. Bam bam bong bong bam bam boink.

Thu, 30 Oct 2003 09:14:23 GMT

There is nothing more earwrecking than me singing to Tori Amos' Siren, but I'm doing it anyway. My poor neighbours! VANILLLAAAAA VANILLAAAAA!

If I disappear somewhere, my neighbours broke in and wrapped me in a jesus tape. O.o

Wed, 29 Oct 2003 20:23:44 GMT

Quick but fun. Color later, maybe...

Wed, 29 Oct 2003 12:32:21 GMT

Bwahahahahahahaaaa

"If you find an Atheist in your neighborhood,
TELL A PARENT OR PASTOR RIGHT AWAY!"

Yes, because atheists like me EAT CHRISTIAN CHILDREN FOR BREAKFAST.

P.s. I wonder what school did "Professor Giraffeistein" graduate.

"Hey professor, haven't dinos been extinct for millions of years?"
"Wrong little buddy, dinosaurs still walk in the land and swim in the seas!"

Yeah, right. Jurassic Park was right! *gets eaten by a tyrannosaurus*

Silllyyyyyyyyy :P

weird cmx lyrics

Tue, 28 Oct 2003 19:58:46 GMT

passage of madness
sweat, boredom
broken skin
rage, terror towards oneself
betrayal doubt sees
the lovers who hate each other
fingers swelling
blue sand dripping from the mouth
(it means nothing)

all my songs
just make fun of me
"mean, sly,
full of herself"

protect me
you god of whores

(from "Epäonnisten liikemiesten helvetti (the hell of unlucky businessmen)" - by CMX. Translated by me. Good song too!

Tue, 28 Oct 2003 12:32:00 GMT

I'm having fun again...

My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul
dreamchord goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as A moth.
afke tricks you! You get a used tissue.
aneira gives you 5 orange coconut-flavoured wafers.
emaleth_ tricks you! You get a pencil.
hokahey gives you 7 white apple-flavoured pieces of bubblegum.
jame0 tricks you! You get a pen cap.
lx gives you 5 blue orange-flavoured pieces of chewing gum.
maestroshelly gives you 4 tan pineapple-flavoured miniature candy bars.
mercilezzangel gives you 1 green raspberry-flavoured gummies.
preciousheart tricks you! You lose 11 pieces of candy!
projectwinter gives you 18 green orange-flavoured gummy worms.
dreamchord ends up with 29 pieces of candy, a used tissue, a pencil, and a pen cap.
Go trick-or-treating! Username:
Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern.

Thanks to all who gave me candy and fuck you who tricked me. Hahahaha XD